Yes, it’s that time of year again. Another sabbat, the Wheel turns and a new season is ready to greet us. The land is still sleepy, blanketed in cold and snow in many places. There are still some signs of the coming spring, and we know that the light has returned by noticing the Sun is awake longer and longer every day since Yule. The air is fresh and crisp, still containing a cleansing bite.
It is a time of renewal, of purification, of initiation. A time to clean out the old and make way for the new that we know is coming to us.
In my household this year, we are in the midst of a remodel. It’s not the ideal time of year for this project to be happening, this much we are aware of. But circumstances led us to the discovery of a massive leak in our roof which has caused some of the supporting beams in the walls of a couple rooms in the house to be damaged badly, and are forcing us to repair the damages. While we’re at it, we might as well make it look nicer than it has in a long, long time. We started with my mother-in-laws room. The walls were wet in some places because of the leak. So we replaced the walls. Painted them and made them beautiful. We ripped out the old carpet to discover the original hardwood flooring still intact and in excellent condition. So we sanded it, buffed it out, polished it to a glorious shine. Bought a nice throw rug and turned it into a quaint sanctuary for her to enjoy. It certainly made the room look even larger, which is always a bonus.
The next step was the bathroom, which we’re still working on. The floor was rotted in some place and so were the back two walls. So it’s all torn apart while we get those fixed. We will follow it with new walls, new flooring, new bathtub, new sink and toilet. There will be beautiful new tiles with a lovely mosaic design. I’m excited for it. Our living room will be the final room (though maybe the kitchen later down the road) at this point. We now know the original hardwood stands throughout the house, so all the old carpet is coming out in order to showcase our beautiful flooring. The walls will be painted, new shelves and bookshelves. A new 3-tiered toy box for the children to keep their toys and games organized. A smaller computer desk I believe would be nice as well. Fewer places for me to hid my little knick knacks and baubles. I’ll have to organize them, too.
Since this is the season of renewal and purification, I’ve been doing small rituals of room blessings and simple spells to aid us in our work. Truth be told, I haven’t done much, the heavy work is being done by the menfolk, while I am left with the task of going through all the clutter and things we don’t need. And there is a lot of that, trust me. It’s a daunting task, and to be honest, I kind of lose the will to live looking at all the junk we have aquired over the years. But downsize we must! I have to just keep reminding myself how much better it will all look in the end, how much better we will feel and how much more inviting our home will be.
Many members in the house don’t agree or follow my religious beliefs, but I think it’s just a matter of perspective and misunderstanding for them. I will continue with my blessings, my chants and simple spells and rituals. I will remove the stagnant energy and use this season to breathe new life into everything.
It’s time for some change. I have to work with them, instead of against them. I have to quit bucking against the men when they tell me what to do, because in this case, it isn’t about sexism or them holding lordship over me, but about them asking me to partner with them, to help them reach their goals, much like I should be all along.
I’ve been ranting a lot in the past, and I think while I will always be the random Ravenna we all know and love, it’s time for me to show how much I’ve grown up. Because I most certainly have. There was so much pain and angst written here, and it bled through to all my readers, to which I thank you for all your support. I’ve been working hard to build more patience in life, to let the little things roll off my back, because wasting the time being angry, is just that – wasting time. I have better things to think and worry about.
My Witchcraft V class is coming along really well, too. I’m loving every moment of it, and it is HARD. There are assignments where I have to take a good long look at myself and be truly honest with myself. Where I have to admit to things, even though they made me uncomfortable. One assignment is called the “I Use List” where we listed all the things we use and how we use them. For me I added things like “I use music to help shift my moods and make me happy. I use the internet for entertainment as well as education.” The one that bothered me was “I use people to make myself feel better about my life.” It just sounded wrong, like I was using people for the sake of using them, the same as any other tool. But it isn’t quite like that. I use people as friends, as comrades and in some cases I guess as enemies, and they all help me make my life better. Whether it is listen to me as I rant and rave about the injustice of life, or they give me advice and wisdom to better my life, even to remind me that I am not an evil person who does evil things. I use people. It still sounds wrong, but it was the truth and so I included it. In the end I was praised for that bravery of being so honest about myself. My next assignment is “I Connect” and I’m still working on that one. I know it will come together the way it needs to be and I am okay with that. In the end, this course will change my life for the better, and has already changed my life.
It’s worth all the hard work.
I’m still planning my main Imbolc ritual, I’ve got an idea in place, it’s just a matter of getting it set up and performing the ritual. I’m pretty excited about it, so that’s always a plus. I shall be purifying and renewing myself this year. I will wash myself clean of the things that bogged me down last year and start fresh.
I plan to make a small feast for it, too. The menu isn’t quite set yet, but again, I have some ideas. It’s still cold out, so I’m thinking hearty comfort foods. Maybe a shepherd’s pie. Some fresh bread and homemade butter. One of our jams that we preserved over the summer. It will be nice to celebrate again. But it will be a quiet one, not quite the same frantic energy of the earlier winter holidays. Like I said, Mother Earth is still sleepy, not quite ready to awaken and green the land. But She is waking, just a little.
I’ve been thinking about music again. Creating playlists that fit the sabbat. There are quite a few songs that I enjoy and fit very strongly with the season. A few old favorites and a couple new ones as well.
Brighid’s Kiss by La Lugh is one of the new ones that I’m enjoying very much. The singer died some years ago, but this song remains for us to enjoy. It’s quite beautiful.
Alive! by Omnia this one has been a favorite of mine since I believe 2010 or so. It makes me want to get up and move and dance. To get my blood flowing and awaken myself to greet the slumbering Goddess and young Sun God.
Music feeds the soul. It gives nourishment, much like the maiden Goddess offers nourishment to the young God and to the earth itself as she awakens from her long sleep throughout the cold of winter.
Let us dance and awaken the Mother my friends! Let us renew our Selves and allow the energies of new life and growth welcome into us!
Welcome to the Maiden Goddess as She wakes and stretches Her hands across the land, bringing a gentle greening. Let the fires of Inspiration, Healing and the Forge of Creation burn brightly within us all! Let the blessings of Brighid be welcomed into our hearts and lives!
Blessed be my friends, have a Happy and Joyful Imbolc this year! May you all be blessed with joy, happiness, abundance and good health.